Annie: Has forgiveness been an issue at all in this trial?
Lisa: Forgiveness, has never really been an issue for us. We know and believe in our hearts that this was purely an accident. It has always been our hearts desire to let the kids involved and families know that we love them, we know they are hurting and we hold no angry or ill feelings towards any of them.
We can’t go back and change time, but we can show God’s love to others and not harbor anger or bitterness to others!
Annie: How have the last 18 months shaped your relationship with God? What is He teaching you?
Lisa: God is still teaching me many lessons throughout this journey. I will admit, for quite some time, my relationship with God was more about me pleading and begging Him to heal our son. I had some issues with why God would not allow X to be healed sooner. I had issues of ‘Why our son?’ I even fought feelings of ‘What did I do to deserve this?’ I saw how this accident basically not only broke my son’s physical body, but broke my heart and spirit. It broke my husband as well. Even during the wonderful things that God was doing for us, and how blessed we felt, it was hard not to question Him. We still do.
It was hard not to feel anger that our God could heal blind men, mute men, diseased and paralyzed men and women in the Bible, but refuse to do the same for my son. And yet, I am drawn to passages in Scripture about God’s love. I need to read about Him being a comforter to the broken hearted. I yearn for his quiet peace that He gives me as I seek Him. I am growing into a more powerful prayer warrior than I was before the accident. I feel I pray all day long, for others and for X. I am more receptive to the pain and trials of others and pray for ways to be a blessing.
I know He is teaching me more about enduring trials and sharing with others His goodness.
I know He is teaching me what true faith looks like.
I know He is teaching me to trust in His plans even when I can not see.
I know He is teaching me to above all us, put Him first in my life. He wants our complete devotion, not just during the easy times, but during “The-get-on-your-knees-and-cry-out-to-God-times!” He wants me to believe and tell others that God is God and He is Good!